This summer has been an absolute life-changing experience for me. Everything that I learned can be summed up into three major points.
One, I got a revelation of just how much higher God’s ways are than my ways. I got the revelation that when I love God with my whole heart, everything I do will be in His hands. I realized that once I feared God and not man, that everything I do will be in His hands. At times, it was hard to focus on God, but I clung on to the first commandment --to love God will all your heart, all that I am. That said, during Taiwan missions, Isabella and I loved to run to the sanctuary to worship God with all that we had. We loved freely praising him with our songs and limited musical abilities. It was very likely that people thought we were strange, wondering why these American kids so joyfully worshipped God in the sanctuary whenever they could. However, Isabella and I continued to worship whenever we could and just focused on loving Him. However, after a few days, we noticed that there were suddenly a few young people that sat in worship with us. They would sing with us and praise God, even though sometimes they didn’t understand our English songs…or our attempts at Chinese songs. By the end of the mission, there were quite a few young people that would sit in on our times of worship. Praise God, because I realized that if I had let the fear of what people thought of me affect me, then those times of worship would never have existed. God’s ways truly are higher than any of man’s thoughts and I am so grateful for the love, joy and peace that we were able to share with each other in our times of worship.
Two, I got a revelation of just what kind of love that God has. The kind that can overcome everything. Because I grew up as an Asian American, I often struggled with Asian culture. I didn’t understand why so many of my Asian friends had parents that were obsessed with academics, so much so that they neglected their kid. I didn’t understand why when I was at my Asian church, parents liked to gossip about their kids, comparing one to another, as if theirs was never good enough. I hated it and I had had enough. However, something happened in Taiwan. Over the week of Taiwan missions, God showed me what love was. He helped me realize that the reason that Taiwan’s culture was the way it was because of a lack of love. I still do not quite understand how God did it or what happened, but gradually day by day, God gave me a love that I could never muster on my own. I never thought I would love Asian people because I struggled so much with the culture, but I do now. So much so that I when I think of those Taiwanese kids and youth, I want to go back and be with them, to love them more. Praise the Lord for such an incredible love!
Three, God gave me a revelation of His perspective of life so that when I came back to the states, nothing was the same again. I stopped taking little things for granted. I realized that the air conditioning and the cleanliness of America were God’s grace. I realized that though America has its perks, it also has many downfalls. Because we have so much entertainment and money, our hearts are easily divided from God. Because of we are so capable of doing things and providing for ourselves, we easily fall into the mindset that we are our own god. Praise God for these revelations that he’s given me this summer. I am so thankful that His love has the power to overcome everything and that His ways are so much higher than mine!
Hanna Tzou 8/18/2010